how gradual our greatest realizations take form! we never see the significance of certain situations until we come face to face one day with the fact that they are here...in our face...so real and so tangible...
we often take for granted the presence of our friends and many important people in our lives. we meet them by chance at the park, a shop, the gas station, or at our favorite restaurant, we promise to call, keep in touch, and shoot an email or a message to their mobiles. Yet we gradually find out that a week, a month, a year has passed by and not a word has been exchanged between us and the friends we met sometime ago, or a millenia ago...
let's face it. we never realize the importance of our pals until they are too far to ever be contacted or called upon. Time and space fill layer upon layer with each moment we forget to keep in touch with them. Until we reach a time when we can no longer recognize them. Or if we can, we are at a loss for words, lack the motor and mental ability of cognition, and simply shrug or nod in a gesture of civility towards a stranger.
the key word in this situation is effort i think. oftentimes we do not try hard enough to seek our friends until they get lost in oblivion. some people though WOULD want to choose to forget certain people too. But i doubt those people would fall in the label of friends.
as for me, I am doing my best to get back to my friends who were with me when i was a bit younger. It was a different world, a different time, a different me, even. i don't know if I just want to relish the good memories or visit and heal the traumas. i just want to see them and see how they are doing. i miss them....i want to see them again....feel nostalgia washing over me....no matter how bad or how good it might be, I'm ready to face the feeling....
3 comments:
Gee! So true! So true!
Yeah it's great to see friends you've seen for a long time. Relive the past good and sometimes hard times.
it's the last line of this blog that's' so affecting. "i'm ready to face the feeling". that is a beautiful state of mind. my very best friend is leaving new york in only a few days after 15 years of being close. i hope i can face the loss and the sense of "missing" that will come soon enough. i'll remember your words.
i love this blog -- i began to look back to few good people i have not seen for a while -- and realized i missed them so bad ---- thanks for reminding :)
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