Friday, October 29, 2010

Of Seahorses and Flounders

What is attraction? The word draws a whole gamut of definitions, meanings that are significant to the beholder as well as the object of one's adoration. Oh I beg your pardon. The object does not have to necessarily be aware of the attention and hypnotism he or she incites in the beholder but wouldn't it be more just if he or she at least takes notice? But the world is not fair and justice is almost ephemeral etcetera etcetera and so we shall have to say attraction may just have to be one-fold :)

I was visiting a friend's gallery and I was fascinated by the underlying theme of his exhibit. It was not only mere artsy photographic images of extraordinary individuals but it was also the intellectual-dissectional comparisons he made of actual images of male to female and female to male transsexuals to objects, animals, mechanisms, vanities, religious and cultural icons and vanities. He cleverly juxtaposed, attached, superimposed, even realigned human parts with unconventional appendagesto convey his thoughts, philosophies, mythology and artistry. Sex-altering flounders, gender-role bending seahorses, the spokes and mechanical structure of a simple machine, pagan images, anatomical systems of insects and canines, phalluses and female canals were just among the many figures of symmetrical dissections and comparative representations he set up to compliment the images of his beautiful subjects

The above event would have sounded good enough for a blog entry but no I have to impose my authority here and write this crucible of a thought out haha... Although his artistry is superb undeniable and incomparable it is this one individual in one of his pictures that has haunted me. I have seen this person in his social network of friends for some time now and I have always considered him to be a very very attractive man. Until my friend shattered me yesterday by saying this person was once a woman!!!!!! He was Female-to-Male! I was like at a loss for words, not so much flabbergasted but maybe in some ways shocked at this revelation. How strange a stirring it caused inside me and how revealing at the same time of this side of my personality it has become!

BUT the more ARCANE reality is that this divine divulgence my friend made about his friend has only served to coat this individual in ENIGMA. I looked once again and concentrated looking at him and it was unmistakeable. Not an ounce of femininity could be found in him! He looked just like any other bloke on the street who I would give more than a second glance because of how handsome he was! The facial hair as well as the structure all pointed to masculinity! Please do not mistake me. I perfectly respect him as an individual and think in more than a hundred ways that he is MAN. But i am just fascinated that transformation with the right hormones and chemical reactions can occur both ways too! Are we capable of manipulating attractiveness by controlling our hormonal makeup? OF COURSE! Look who's asking! Hehehehehe

I am attracted to this person. But yes going back to the lack of justice in our world, he doesn't know it. And I think I may choose to keep it that way. He probably wants his privacy because there may be a lot of bigotry or discrimination where he lives AND the bigger impediment is he may have a partner so I think it would be a tad too invasive if I meddle with affairs that are beyond me. I have to marvel from afar. But what is more disturbing I think is WHAT does THIS ATTRACTION to him MAKE ME? What label is to be attached to someone like me who is attracted to someone like him who is an F-T-M transformista? Does the "if it moves, looks and feels like a man, it probably is" principle DEFINE me as a STRAIGHT woman too, naturally attracted to a STRAIGHT man?

How unusual for me to admit that I am in a state of ambiguity at this moment too! I love the gay men and now I may indulge in something unknown to me because it is pleasing to the eye. What's next? Oh no not zoophilia please! That would be too extreme for me and for you presumably, you who adore me for me! hahahaha

(PS thank you to for the second picture which is that of transgendered FTM Adam Dahl. I am grateful!)

Thursday, October 28, 2010

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Monday, October 18, 2010

A thought for my Birthday

You know the older we get the deeper we become when it comes to thinking about many mundane realities in life and suddenly these events suddenly do not seem so average anymore after taking on a different hue because of how we analyze and rethink about them in so many ways. Perspective is key word when we analyze happenings. We have to assume a third person persona to be able to be objective in examining, cross-examining and making our conclusions about everyday realities.

For example just after a certain provocative event earlier during the month I have come to realize that when a man gives me head it is absolutely one of the greatest gift he can give me!

Why do I say this?

For a man to lay down his ego, and men HAVE EGOS, by going down on a woman or another man if we have to widen the scope, this act of submission becomes a thing of beauty - worth dying for, poetic, artistic and oh so beautiful! I do want to define the boundaries of submission though, and I respect the people who adhere to this, by reclassifying people who enjoy being submissive as an art form and people who chose to be submissive at just that rare moment in time for their partner. It is so gratifying to see a man go down on me because their willingness to lay down their egos and go beyond the box which they have cloistered themselves around during their periods of normalcy is so valuable and highly appreciable and I consider it such an honor to be the recipient of a very submissive act.

Sigmund Freud always thought that adult men at some point in their lives always chose to return to their comfort zones whenever they are taken out of it by pleasing their oral faculties first. He explains that this started eons ago in a man's life that during infancy when he would feel uncomfortable and he screamed and cried and had no power over appeasing himself except through the sensitivity and the actions of a Higher One- his parent, His mum would stick his mouth with a milk bottle or had him suckle her nipples to appease him quickly. This was one of the very first acts of being pacified, being given comfort. And later on in infantile life with the power of movement, he would appease himself by sticking a toy, a stick - almost anything in his mouth to feel happy or comforted!

When men become adults and powerful individuals in comparison to the helplessness of infancy, they have the power to remove themselves out of an uncomfortable situation. They are more in control now. This power THOUGH still demonstrates regressing back to a similar-ish stage in their infancy - pleasing the mouth. Do you remember sticking a cigarette, candy, or a smallish food item instinctively into your mouth to ward off an uncomfortable feeling, stress or pressure?

I think this is also similar to what happens during oral sex! Making love or copulating with someone is a stressful situation albeit stress of another nature. But still the event is volcanic in nature, volatile and susceptible to uncontrollable urges, it might be beautiful or it might be destructive. Men lose control over themselves while in it and I think one of the best ways they pacify and relax is by giving head. It is also a stress-reliever for them - something akin to smoking a cigarette in a testosterone-filled, pressure chamber of a roomful of men in an executive meeting- can you imagine the sizes of the egos inside such a sanctum? This would be enough to make men -well, pick up a cigarette and puff furiously!!! hahahaha! This is also similar to the sexual act! Men adhering to the code of fellatio is almost Freudian! They are appeasing, pacifying themselves as adults now and more in control by giving head!!! And for me to be at the receiving end - ahhhhh pleasure!!! I tell you this is TRUE-ish...

I am not undermining though the possibility that a guy might actually also be enjoying the fact that he is giving me pleasure but nevertheless no matter which perspective I take on, if the very end to all these means is still the pleasure of both partners then I am for it! But the mere fact that he chose to celebrate, treat, partake, indulge, honor or mark as special this rare event of submitting himself to the act of fellatio is truly an art form that can only be replaced by few realities in our lifetimes! So enjoy yourself and make your man feel blessed too by letting him know it's so beautiful to watch him give head!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Sibling site

If you're feeling nostalgic and sort of want to go through my old blog posts without having to sort out this website with lots of content and pore over it like a scientist studying hieroglyphics, I have come up with a perfect solution for you!

This has become partially essential to me too because my fans in China cannot access anything with a BLOG named in a URL so I decided to launch a second website where entries from THIS website are exported over to that second website. (which makes my China viewers access my writings)

SO if you want to avoid the hassle of looking for old articles from over more than 300 here on then here is the solution! And if you're in China and want to enjoy reading me....

just CLICK

and VOILA!!! it is my blog all over again but with articles that I have sifted through and have picked out the chaff from the grain from..:)

It is still in its infancy so don't expect a lot yet but I am progressing real well and it is sort of a webpage with all the highly read-able entries only and none of the craziness I had in the original site. I've made sure to even include the dates of each entry so people will be able to understand what MAY have been my mode of thought was at that moment and not be confused about it being a current article.

It is the younger and more sensible sister of this original site if I might say! hahahah

Big kiss and enjoy reading ME

Sunday, October 3, 2010

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