Thursday, February 28, 2008

Philippine internet access????

Zhong Xing Telecommunication Equipment Company is a colossal telecommunications company based in China. They are one of the biggest players in the telecom business in Asia and perhaps the world.
Why am I talking about this? Because I have heard about the ZTE broadband scam which has clouded the political atmosphere of my country, the shithole called the Philippines, and has glued Filipinos to their television sets when more interesting programs are not around hahahahahahahaah. Please do not mistake me, the Philippines has so many remarkable places, people and traits. But some of the realities of life here including the major business called graft and corruption irks me big time and I am not alone of course in saying this.

Now ZTE and the joke called the Philippine government enter into an agreement called the National Broadband Network deal (NBN deal) where the telecom company will set up and structure a broadband network of the Philippine government which means virtually all of the cogs who work in any agency and department connected with the government will have internet connection and all benefits involved with broadband connections.

To pay for this project including its interests we have to, of course, add to our already debilitating national debt by receiving a loan from China. Of course the funds for this payment is taken from the national treasury which includes people's taxes and the many avenues which our country derives its finances.

Now are you ready to eat this with chips because everything is starting to reek of fish? As in fishy??? LOL

Here is a colorful story involving circus clowns called Philippine political officials LOL

1. Jose "Joey" De Venecia III:

He is the son of House Speaker Jose De Venecia Jr., who is a known supporter of our President's Arroyo's administration. This guy pours out his knowledge and firsthand experiences of the rigging of the deal through massive overpricing and kickbacks by many of our officials IN AN AFFIDAVIT and then in a Senate investigation. (His document says the project was overpriced by about $130M (6 Billion pesos!!!!!!) in its first proposal and the current contract for implementation by about $89M (4 Billion pesos!!!!!)...

Coincidentally Mr. Joey owns Amsterdam Holdings Inc. (AHI), which lost the bid for the NBN project to ZTE. So this would create a cloud on his own story wouldn't it?

His document says the project was overpriced by about $130M (6 Billion pesos!!!!!!) in its first proposal and the current contract for implementation by about $89M (P4 B), which will be loaned by the RP gov't to China with interest.
2. Benjamin Abalos

Now Former Comission on Elections Chairman (as he has resigned LOL). This fucktard was the agent who negotiated the contract as he was "golfing buddies" with some ZTE officials, something he did not deny. In return, he and "gang" was to get $130 M in kickback! Abalos also reportedly went to China several times, enjoying escapades paid for by the ZTE officials. He admitted making several trips to China.

3. First Gentleman Mike Arroyo

Also known as FGMA, Mike Arroyo is the First Gentleman of the Philippine republic and "husband" to Pres. Gloria Arroyo. This bloke has been connected to numerous corruption anomalies in the country. His role of course in this sick tale is being the "mystery man" in this scam, one of Abalos' gang members who stands to receive a fairly huge amount from the scheme. He is famous for allegedly acting as the agitated bastard in THE meeting with HIS pals and De Venecia. He was purported to have pointed his finger about “two inches from De Venecia's nose,” and told him to “back off.” Arroyo wanted De Venecia to leave the deal and stop meddling.FGMA fled the country a day before the Senate hearing, raising suspicion that he was avoiding the scandal.

Right now this whole thing has blown out of proportion and has been exploited by the media big time because of the juiciness of it all. Plus so many other sectors of society have waded in and given their says on this political mess. As of speaking the investigation is going on full-scale with the Senate and involved political parties all playing their part. Everyone is screaming and pointing fingers and I know this is not that far from John Grisham novel scenarios LOL You probably can conclude why I travel a lot and not stay in my country so much hahahahaha....
But I personally would love to play Sherlock Holmes or Darby Shaw ( The Pelican Brief) and investigate and admittedly fantasisingly stumbling upon a mysterious non-political character who is so powerful he is pulling the strings on all these puppets called politicians LOL But I know I have been reading too much Grisham and maybe Ludlum novels LOL

I have not known any of this because frankly speaking myspace and facebook seems to tickle me more hahahaha but this is interesting ENOUGH to make my blog hahahaha

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

HANG on to your LAPTOPS!!!!!

Eye candy and ultimate winklergirl Asianboy crush Edison Chen is in a deep muck right now....View this....

To make a long story short...Edison handed his Apple Mac laptop to technicians of a computer shop or something to have some bug fixed and of course given the famous name that he is, his hard drive probably got the scrutiny of a lifetime and from there havoc of intense proportion emanated.

Remember his hard drive did not only contain photos and videos of him having sex but more significantly also of him having sex WITH famous Chinese celebrities which include some actresses and a singer with the bubble-gum sweet personalites who have for years tried to maintain their images LOL. These actresses are now enraged as their celebrity images have now been tainted as the photos and vids circulate like ripples on a placid lake growing wider and wider as seconds tick BUT with the blinding speed of pixels and kilobytes per second downloads this might as well be tsunamis spreading on an endless ocean LOL

The actor has already admitted in a press conference his guilt much to the shock of the Chinese speaking population. He said he took most of the photos but of course quickly added that these were not meant to be shown for public consumption and that these were his private files...tsk tsk!

Gosh I can only imagine the legal and career mess this will cause the Asian cutie and as of speaking his career is in a standstill at least in Hong Kong where he is as famous as Fidel Castro is in Cuba.....sigh....

Now here is a fun pictionary for my audience and it's not so parental guidance-ish ok?

These tramps should go to hell for sexing my future beau HAHHAHAHHAHA joke...

All I can say is...poor Chen...he was a such a big crush of mine as the character Eason in The Grudge 2. He did not deserve this but I don't know he was careless and for Christ's sake why did he not, for reasons of discretion and ultimate privacy, store them on some separate portable hard drive or burnt them to blank DVDs like I do with my sex gallivantings hahahahhaha


is Kanye West some form of a genius?????

When i listened to this ...

and i adore this song and SIMPLY RED!!!

This is genius genius genius genius.....

(note: Remember to CLICK LAUNCH STANDALONE PLAYER IF it doesn't LOAD automatically THANKS!!! )

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Friday, February 22, 2008


I stare down from the 17th floor of a posh hotel...and I felt my head spin in a feeling akin to vertigo...So I go back to my chair facing a drab-colored but nevertheless expensive-looking table lamp. I try to get back to my task but several images facing me coalesce to give me an almost surrealistic feeling. I say almost because they are not quite incongruous to the whole picture but they do indicate a life that seems to be one thing but is another...
The address on the paper, the hotel's name behind the useless battery, the handles of a bag, the opened tiny bottle of Bulgari lotion, an unwashed cup of chocolate and a tiny metal container with torn-out sugar packs beside it...they all somehow form one big image of a luxurious, sophisticated and tycoonic life yet the truth is startingly different. This is a miserable existence...

When you have fun in bed with someone and attend to his needs and get paid for it, it all seems fine and fabulous and ordinary when you look at it from the outside but truth is society calls you a whore, a prostitute...You are scorned at, laughed at, mocked at...all feeling of revulsion rains upon you....
It's ironic that when you are with someone, an entity called a client, they would never dare call you flesh for sale. They would say they revere, respect and worship you and even dare say they love you. Yet I can only guess what they are thinking after they have orgasmed, when their debauchery has been fed, when the act has I not right? ? When they leave my room...when I leave their hotel room, their thoughts are mine....You know what I mean? You're trying to don and assume their thoughts in an act of curiosity and perhaps just the insatiable need for answers to a life full of queries. You want to pick their brains and see what the neurotic signals stand for- the meaning of these electrical impulses. But then again why do I say all this? Am I suggesting that there is nothing BUT negative thoughts of me in their minds when both of us have wiped the sweat, lust and letch from our bodies and they have reached for the medium of barter to hand it to me - a most classic scene in this taboo profession? Of course not! But I do want your cash.....
My existence is one of appearances, pretexts of a scheme that has long existed beyond our infantile imagination. Sometimes I feel like a counterfeit bill, I have to represent something in the color-blind retinas of people which I am not really. Similar to these images which pepper a sketch to feign opulence and royalty, the reality is they mask a being stuck in the muck of a bottomless bog, I hope you do not know what I am talking about because I hate being too open. I disdain it when people try to pick my brains. But I certainly want to study yours........................







Patrician features....


No no..please I wasn't using these photos to promote the Hong Kong Equestrian 2008 Olympic Events ... LOL

Monday, February 18, 2008


jutting shoulderblades, endless limbs, sallow cheeks....
loves it loves it loves it!!!!

Sunday, February 17, 2008


Congratulations to Mr. John from the great state of Texas!!! He is now a new member to my VIP lounge yahoo group!!! I have known this guy from way before and he has amazingly found his way to my path again!!!

Welcome to this exclusive circle and i hope you enjoy the benefits the group I created has to offer!!!!

You fancy some champagne or wine or a can of good ol' Coors?

red alert!!!!

goooossshhh what's with this song that strikes a chord in me????? it must be the romantic in me longing to be uncaged!!! is love waiting around the corner? geeezzzzzz.....

Saturday, February 16, 2008

is he or not?

Hahaha this was forwarded by a cousin....and from at least 75% of my experience with men I can say it is somewhat true!!!!

5 signs he’s into you

By Chelsea Kaplan

Having trouble figuring out your guy’s level of interest in you? Sometimes, the proof is in his body language. To understand what your honey’s movement, eye contact and even posture reveal about his true feelings for you, check out these hints from Greg Hartley, former Army Special Forces interrogator and author of I Can Read You Like a Book: How to Spot the Messages and Emotions People Are Really Sending With Their Body Language.

Five signs your date is into you…

1. He closes the distance
“First and foremost, moving in closer indicates a desire for more intimate contact,” Hartley says. So if a guy you’re talking to at a party inches a little closer as you talk, or your date slides into the same side of the booth as you, you know he wants to get to know you better—and not as a friend.

2. He speaks softly
When a man talks in a quieter voice, it’s an excellent sign, Hartley explains. “He’s indicating that what he’s saying is for your ears only,” he says. “If he’s telling you something private or secret, it’s a good thing—guys don’t do that to women they’re not into.” If you want to let that soft-talker know you feel the same way, respond in kind, which should quickly turn those sparks into an all-out fire. Caveat: If you’re in a loud bar or restaurant, where you have to shout to be heard, you can’t tell anything by his decibel level. So wait until you’re walking or driving home to see whether he’s turned the volume down.

3. He rounds his posture
Hypermasculine body language (think: swaggering walk, standing tall with shoulders back and chin up, etc.) serves to attract women from a distance. But when a guy is talking close-up with a woman he likes, he will soften, or “round” his body language, Hartley notes. If your guy’s squared shoulders cave in when he’s chatting with you, he’s indicating that he feels comfortable and secure in your presence.

4. He talks slowwwwly....
Like birds in a mating dance, men typically talk more slowly and softly when they are attracted to someone, Hartley explains. Of course, if he knocked back a few gigante lattes on a first date, he may be too wired (and nervous) to sound like Barry White, but give it time: If his speech starts to make you feel sleepy, he’s a goner.

He can’t take his eyes off you (in a good way)

So his eyes are locked on yours? As long as it isn’t a psycho stare, but rather a lingering, heavy-lidded, “Wow, you’re amazing” gaze, that guy is digging you big-time, Harley says.

…and 5 signs your date isn’t into you

1. He’s four feet away
If his motto may as well be The Police’s “Don’t Stand So Close to Me”, he’s not feelin’ you romantically, Hartley says. How do you define “distance”? “If he remains four feet or more away from you, it is a clear signal that’s his heart’s not in it,” says Hartley.

2. He stands at an oblique angle facing you
“Most men do not realize that when talking to another man, we stand at oblique angles, with one shoulder facing the other’s face, yet when we talk to women — especially ones we’re interested in romantically — we stand face-to-face with them,” Hartley says. If your guy’s shoulder is pointing in the direction of your face during conversation, he’s subconsciously showing disinterest or is trying to turn you off, Hartley explains.

3. He sounds like that guy in accounting
If your date is talking to you like you’re someone at the office — meaning the pace is quick and the level of his voice is rather strong — “he’s probably just trying to keep it to friend level,” Hartley says. With time, you might notice a change — after all, he just might want to keep it “professional” on the first date or two while he gets to know you — but if it remains this way after a few dates, cut your losses.

4. He stares at your mouth
When a guy focuses on your lips, what he’s really trying to do is avoid eye contact, Hartley explains. “If he’s avoiding eye contact, you can pretty safely assume he’s not into you,” he asserts. If your date fixes his gaze below your face, he’s probably interested in you, but perhaps not for a long-term relationship, if you know what we mean…

5. He’s out of sync with your body language
When a guy is romantically interested in you, he will mimic your body language, so if he doesn’t copy you, gesture for gesture, odds are he isn’t smitten, Hartley says. To test the waters, try leaning in closer to you date, using your hands to emphasize what you’re saying. If your guy does the same, it’s a great sign. But if he keeps his hands still, pulls away or takes a step backwards, he may be unavailable or just plain not interested.

Friday, February 15, 2008

down down down we go....

For as long as I remember one of the most handsome faces I have ever seen on screen has been this man. He really strikes so many chords in my visual guitar and I know I am probably not alone in this opinion. I cannot praise his devilish face and boyish lips enough.

His acting prowess is what sets him apart from many wannabe actors though. He has great depth in his acting and has a style which is unique and incomparable. And you need distinction in the film industry considering there are more than a thousand actors who pour into Hollywood to try their luck not to count the stars who are already established in the business. But Downey is just super when it comes to his acting. Words escape me when he utters his lines in his films.

He was so huggable in "Hearts and Souls" where he played the part of a young man who was plagued by ghosts who considered him as their "vehicle" towards the personal reconciliation of each of their unfulfilled lives which was snatched away from them by a freak bus accident on a highway. During the process they mess up his personal life but in the end he is happy for each one of them upon realising that he was pivotal in their personal happinesses and self-fulfillments....

He was sublime and noncommittal in the suspense thriller, "Gothika" where he plays the psychologist friend and admirer of Halle Berry who cherished their friendship before THE incident afterwhich he became civil and cold after Halle Berry "murdered" her husband in cold blood.

He was equally so disarming in "Chances Are" where he plays the part of yet another vehicle, a young man who this time is the reincarnation of a man who was killed in a road accident. When fate brings him to the home of the woman he used to be attached to in his past life everything crashes in an amorous deja vu. But he has a slightly significant dilemma in that he is also attracted and connected to Cybill's stepdaughter, the lovely Mary Stuart Masterson.

Oh I can only rant on about this man's effect on me. His drug addictions personally do not irk me BECAUSE personal life has nothing to do with what he has contributed to our world and the art he has committed to. When we touch that part of his life of course we are naturally turned off because he has been in legal troubles because of his known substance abuse which are well chronicled by the media. Because of this Robert Downey Jr. may be widely portrayed by conservative people as bad influence to their families and children. But when we get down and study ourselves, AREN'T our personal lives HELL too? I mean, not all of us live the storybook life.....beautiful house, manicured green lawns, white fences, the perfect Snow White wife and Hansel and Gretel kids??? I mean who are we kidding right? So I have this opinion that before I judge Mr. Downey on his personal hell of a life, I must first look at my own which is a complete inferno!!!

All in all I love him for all he has contributed to our world and to the silverscreen and to my eyecandy store LOL. His charisma never ceases to amaze me. Maybe his personal life was an outlet for him to release all his pentup pressures from his onscreen excellence. That I will have to find out when I sit down and chat with the great man...hehehe...who knows when? where? how? Ahhhh someday..........

more power!!!

oh blog oh blog...aren't both of us powerful entities now???

We are capable of moving thoughts, minds and now....PEOPLE????

Who has had liposuction done to her tummy because of an infamous blog entry we both created a couple of months ago???hhahahahahahahahhahaha!!!

Which iguana-esque reptilian faced wannabe whore/tourist guide has created a FRIENDSTER account with my face as a profile picture and with my pictures taken from God-knows-where with unholy and disparaging captions and invited some of my friends in an attempt to disgrace yours truly to justify the fact that she STILL cannot show photos of her real self and her lunar surfaced epidermis???? Doesn't she know that some people will still tell me about it and doesn't she know that her SUBSTANCE ADDICTION HAS REACHED MY EARS from a reliable source from a famous transsexual forum? Man oh she aware that those MIND-SEDUCING SUBSTANCES are BAD for a WANNABE WHORE like her especially when she is not even getting repeat clients after they see the antediluvian UNphotoshopped horror that she truly is?????HAHAHHAHAHAH

But in the same manner that we are able to move people in the direction of the two aforementioned bitches we have also been able to move people's thoughts and characters too and they have complimented and commented on both of us well...the writer and the blog....they have showered us positive words of which we have gratefully allowed ourselves to wash in...

The fact that they spent a fraction of their time in cyber space in our own personal space makes us joyous and sublimely sated because of the many spots they can visit they somehow chose to pore over our page....and for that we are indebted to them!!

Indeed we have power now oh blog my blog...we can move the WORLD in our own small way!!!! That's why I love you more today than yesterday!!!


Thursday, February 14, 2008

my mind in bars....

For the past few weeks there has been such a strange deviation in my sleep now. Or should I say waking hour? Because NOW I can recall my dreams remarkably whereas before I had completely deep, stone-dead AND dreamless slumbers. Well it is an established fact in the psychological world and a generally accepted reality that our imagination runs amok when it is at rest producing numerous fantastical scenarios called dreams but the big question is whether we can retrace our steps back to relate THE PICTURES AND SCENES we EXPERIENCED during THIS EXTRAORDINARY PHENOMENA in our conscious state or not...In my case my forays to the netherworld of Morpheus have been ill-remembered for as long as I can remember until the last few weeks. They stand out in my memory more now and I believe I can even write them down in detail. My theory is that this is probably happening because I have ceased taking sleeping pills so now I am resting naturally and as a consequence my memory has returned to its usual agitated and healthy state. I don't know really....

For the longest time now and all throughout my life strange dreams about criminals have continually haunt me. These are not ordinary robbers or shoplifters I feel. They are serial killers and very violent men who have a real lust for killing people. These are people who would not hesitate to cut throats when they can if i am allowed to say so. I have never seen them do it in my sleep but somehow I felt their capabilities. There was one scene where there was a gigantic riot inside the prison ground. Policemen were being killed left and right and the inmates were able to escape jail and frollick joyously around town probably wreaking havoc thereafter. I cannot recall what happened afterwards since I woke up before I could ever continue remembering the scene.

Then several moments ago before I wrote this entry this uncanny situation played out in my sleep and it was very disturbing. I was in a room where the most hardened criminals were present. One officer was chatting nonchalantly with the second most-wanted guy in the region with no shackles or handcuffs to restrict him. There was a huge holographic screen above us which featured a reality-TV-show-like scenario where the video featured criminals apprehended and manhandled by police in different areas all simultaneously or spontaneously telecast live for us to see. Then we watched the MOST wanted guy being mangled by police on the screen in less than placid atmosphere naturally. Then the officer chatting with Mr. Most Wanted 2 grabbed the inmate's arm and led him around several desks. They were making their way to the direction where I was seated when I stumbled upon consciousness! Thank God I woke up because I was feeling terrified at the possible outcome if they passed within inches of me so I felt relieved!

Can someone please explain to me why I have had these dreams with these legal offenders and bloodless scoundrels as subjects on many occasions throughout my life? Are these subliminal indicators of my evilish ways? I certainly hope not! I am a psychology graduate and I SHOULD have an inkling what these mental events mean but it has been a long time since I last studied or reviewed the interpretation of dreams in an academic light. Of course I am aware that Psychology and consequently dreams are not exact numerically measurable sciences. There is a lot of gray area in them but for heavensakes anyone with an idea of why I have been having these horrendous scenarios in my mind when I am asleep, please do come forward and let me hear what you have to say.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

a plaGue of appreciation....

There are many realities in my life that continually astound me as I try to help myself become a more mature individual. In fact the list would be endless I believe.

For me one of those would be that long after an emotionally distressing event WHEN I am so over brooding about it and WHEN I CAN study it with a more rational perspective, realization strikes me that I must even be grateful for having traversed through such an experience!

In the more recent and incongruous cases, they involve MEN.....(ohhh if women are from Venus men must be from another galaxy!!!!). A classic example would be a guy who treats me more warmly and intimately than I expected him to do so. I mean at this point in my life I normally assign a certain level of connection to men who are in my life. Some deserve the warm, emotionally thermal treatment from me while others get the more civil and slightly distant side of me. It's like "hierarchizing" them so that I may know how much to give of myself and how little to withdraw too. I know you must be confused why I do this but I am certain I am not alone in giving these assignations.

But some of these guys give me the wrong signals and skew my satellite network in more ways than one. I get the feeling that they are giving more of themselves than they ought to be giving and so I would develop the tendency to reciprocate that self-exposure they are doing then suddenly the connection becomes so barren and parched! Oh why oh why was I not exposed early in life to intimate attachments with my opposite sex! I would have been able to gain experience and not be so novel to the beguiling ways of males!!! Hahahahaha! But then again given the LIFE i chose I probably did not have much of an option. Somehow I should have expected and accepted that it was natural to have some level of stunting in the development of my opposite-sex minglings.

Let's go back to the original premise about bestowing gratitude on people or situations that have glared me with seemingly painful-at-first but eventually-remedying-and-immunising realities of life. I must indeed give thanks to several individuals who have done me wrong most especially emotionally because they all gave me a reason to realize not only were they jerks hahahahha but also the act of pushing me away from themselves had a rather perversely positive effect of beneficiality on my well-being and self-awakenings. I mean who knows? They probably were giving me wrong signs which I misunderstood in the first place right? So there you are that's a positive realization again that some men are more deceitful than others and of course that some aren't too! It makes my awareness and sonar stronger and more attuned to the beguiling AND sincere (as well!) ways of people in general! Another revelation would be I probably underestimate my fear factor too much! Some men are probably just scared of my qualities including my brains when rationalization hits them. Am I too good for them???? Do they deserve to be happy? Aaargh!!!!! That has crossed my mind for a very select few individuals (And they deserve it!!! hahahaha) but of course very rarely and rightly so! That's going back to the rationale of them being arses don't you think? But please do not misunderstand me. I do not want to believe that because I never wanted to dwell on my SELF too much because I have never been one to be too vain about what attributes I have.

In the end I guess I should just be happy and give these individuals credit because they made me grow as a person especially in the social aspect of my personal life. I have issues and I do admit it but I know I am still capable of growth in this department. I should all just count them as bookmarks that I can turn to whenever I want to review that certain chapter when I encounter a similar page in my personal relationships diary.

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