Congratulations to my blog... my sweet little lover is now 7 years old... Can you imagine a 7 year old blog that is not filled with shoes, bags, and everything nice considering the writer is THE material girl? Ha ha! I think it has been quite an achievement that as the years have dragged on the blog has continued to be tenacious in spite of the many challenges I have faced in my personal life. At one point I would have closed down the blog because of LOVE... EEEK!!! Horror of horrors!!! What?!?!??!?!? I don't know what frame of mind I was in that time but looking back I thought that was an insane idea. Thank God it's never happened nor has the thought ever occurred again!!! LOL
At my age too I see so many young things coming out of the woodwork! Both in my chosen field of endeavor and the young things I encounter and experience in my daily meanderings. Has time passed me by? When I look in the mirror I see no wrinkles, perfect vision, nothing sags, my hairline shows no sign of recession (if any my hair has unbelievably gone thicker!!!) , no sign that the years have worn me out. I'm still an active young thing that runs on diesel oil. I love to move, I love to run, jump, work out, play. I feel only the slightest flinch of pain when I wear out a certain body part such as the ankles when I'm skipping rope, or the legs when I push too hard playing badminton. But I do know these are natural bodily reactions that I've always gotten even when I was younger.
And most of all, the greatest thing that I've come to ponder on is, I feel that I still have so many adventures to go onto, so many places to explore, so many people to get personal with, analyze, and then see each and every subterfuge behind the intimacy they are offering. I feel there are still so many things that have not happened in my life...AND I have already lived TWO lifetimes! The first one before the transition - the traditional, straightforward, mediocre one....the second - hormone-induced, beautiful, zest-filled, and MOST interesting part..
Have I been blessed with a natural internal elixir that has automatically refreshes me every time I unconsciously need it???
I am not wealthy in terms of the ''white-picket fence, car and big house'' ideal that so many people and my colleagues strive for. I love the things that people give me, which is why I almost never give anything away. Every little thing that somebody gives me takes me to a place, a moment, a smile, a frown line and a laugh which is why I am a sentimentalist with gifts. I am materialistic but I think I manage quite well when I do not get everything I want. I bide my time, like a leviathan using radar to monitor the deep, the infinite patience, and the thrill of immersing myself in the moment when I acquire the things I want.
Sometimes the emotional oscillations throw me off but I know they are natural as with any woman and in fact every living being who IS NOT a pneumatic robot. We have feelings, irrationality, baggage and desires, it is but natural to feel these ups and downs. We are not hermits or yogis or monks who gave up a lot of worldly realities to acquire some form of peaceful, regular stagnation. We will always be swayed by the tides, turns and tribulations offered to us by the spectacle of Life and people...
The journey is not over.....Yet I am almost done with life ...
Hmmmmm...
