double trouble

i hate double standards...

there is enough confusion in this world and here comes double standards to further diffuse our congested world.

Men will say, you are so beautiful, you don't need anymore enhancements. And then oggle at the plastic beauties parading their wares around the Net or wherever visibility range is very high...

Men will say, I love you, I believe I can offer you this and that. Yet they will equate sex with love and make love to us and then give us a goodbye kiss without offering anything and think we have to be thankful to them for it...

Men say "women are from venus, " they say they stagger to understand us, and yet they themselves do not know what they want...they womanize, flirt and then tell us they love us deeply...

Men claim they like women who are independent but they find it hard to understand equality among the sexes...

In an already fucked-up world...all these thoughts confine me further more into a state of mental chaos and emotional maelstrom. It makes me wonder, is there anything worse than this? And I know the answer is yes........

free sex

"When a guy tells you how much he loves you, and wants to have babies with you, he means I love having sex with you for free. Free meaning no obligations. Men will promise the world to get laid. When a guy and a girl are about to have sex, a guy will promise her anything under the sun. As soon as he cums, he's like, "Get the fuck out! I don't know who you are. I've never seen you before in my life."

- excerpt from "The Invisible Trade" by Gerry Lim

diversions...

sometimes when things choke us up or occupy the mind too much we need a break...something to help steer our attention away from these objects clogging up our brains...

for me I needed a real diversion from my travels..I had been traveling around Asia for many months and I decided to just give myself the much-needed space I required.

I went home and gave myself the time to just refocus my energies on friends, family and hobbies which I am not capable of doing when I am on my travels...

God I never realized what recharging one's batteries really meant until I arrived home and started mixing with friends again! I had never felt happier and more energized than this in many weeks! Nothing beats home definitely and nothing beats the company of friends when you want to try something different from the routine you are used to....Home and friends offer many options it offers to purify one's mind and rid itself of the sebum that has clogged the pores of my brain....

me in motion.....(bangkok)

Oh Sergi!!!

puhleeaaaaaaaasse marry meeeeeeeeeeeee LOL



oh Spanish conquistadorrrrrrrr................... tell me you love meeeeeeeeeeeeee....



kiss meeeeeee....that's it...........


yummy................. lick............. i want moreeeeee LOL ........

amphibious wonder...

Oh my God!!!!

I could not believe when i saw this on Yahoo News (thanks to Yahoo for the pics by the way!)!!!
But I love it!



I know some people get sick or turned off by the sight of creatures unbeknownst to them but I love the existence of strange creatures in this world and the unpredictability of the variances in the animal kingdom..

But this is truly a feat of nature rebelling against the forces of known science. Genetic abhorrences within the animal kingdom are either acceptable or totally disgusting for the average worldly citizen but I love it! It is a manifestation that the Earth is capable of producing the most varied creatures bordering as well almost on the supernatural because of the extent to which it stretches the boundaries of animal mutation.

But I am so loving these pictures! Hehehe...

how relevant!!!!

i am having an orgasm reading this book!




Not the kind of orgasm you are thinking of naughty!!!! But a verbal and literary orgasm that grips the senses when you know you have found and are consuming a good book!

bought it at the best airport in the world in my opinion, Changi in Singapore...

what a read!

so I shall continue to read............... :)

(P.S. and yes that's my hand holding the book HAHAHAHAHA)

i so like her...

Fuck what people say about anorexia, bulimia, starving, purging and crash diets HAHAHAHHA

Fat may be where it's at but thin is deliciously IN!!!!

Love the gaunt look, love the jutting shoulder blades, love the translucent ribcage...love everything about her!!!







achievable....isn't it???? hehehehehhe.........................

Thailand...in pictures..

brace yourself...this is my biggest blogpixtorial....ENJOY!!!!

why i love fashion...

the aspect i love about the fashion world is its unpredictability. We all know that models may come and go very fast. The world of modelling is so murderous it has had too many cadavers along its path and many girls have a glimpse of success for only a fleeting moment. Some of them appear and disappear so fast the world barely knew they became stars in the world of style. And people who are not insiders to the business? Forget it! What do they know about the name Gisele Bundchen? Hahaha

To switch to a more positive view, how about the lack of predictability in model kingdom? That part of the business which lets a model bounce back after disappearing for some time? You thought that woman was totally over and her career was so done and then suddenly the style kingdom resurrects her back to life. She walks the runway again , is seen in all the glossy magazine covers and editorials, and even makes her way to more mainstream show business publications.


this is almost similar to life. We never know what's coming next. We can always rise from our problems and start anew. The good thing about us compared to the fashion Barbie dolls is we have the handles to our lives, they don't. The designers, style media, magazine editors, decide who should be seen. In our life, that is not the case. We decide if we want to bounce back or not. That's life. Whether we want it or not, it will always give us a chance to redeem ourselves. This fact makes me so happy. It gives me hope when i feel depression and despair eating me. I will bounce back...

i miss these guys......WAAAAAAA!!!

Cebu in the guise of GUYS.... LOL

bone deep

when a bone-deep sadness overtakes your senses, you cannot help but break down and cry. Is crying a negative emotion? Why do people ask you, "Why are you crying"? Not all kinds of tears connote negative emotions you know. Some have relief in them, a few maybe a sense of awakening and even some, tears of joy. But mine for sure is a mixture of homesickness, emotional upheavals, mental highs and lows and some moderate form of depression. I know myself well. I do not know myself well. Both statements are true nevertheless. You do not understand? They speak for themselves.

The geothermal energy of our emotions gush out in many outlets and one of them is crying. I cannot speak for everyone but crying seems to be my volcano of molten, hot and trapped feelings of a whole gamut of emotions...guilt, resentment, hurtfulness...many things. When I need to erupt, crying is the lava that flows from my internal engine. The catastrophic results may be minor, some may be life-long. I have no idea which ones are life long but I seem to have many issues...

It must be good because many days after I look at the moment, I am able to laugh at it and talk to people about it. There are lessons learned and maybe useless tears but they are never without their reasons...

when i see young gay boys here in bangkok who are barely in their teen years, i find myself amused, smiling and thinking. I appreciate the openness with which they can display a lifestyle which is scorned at in most societies. It is true that most civilizations have come to accept the homosexual lifestyle or have claimed to have had accepted it. But no place on earth have I ever seen where the young gay boys can easily blend into the background with their noticeably different gestures, flamboyant gait and sometimes outrageous outfits.

The spectrum of gay can include the quiet, barely noticeable and very masculine gentlemen who cannot be recognized by the common public to the loud, talkative and very very feminine and blatant gab of the woman-man called the ladyboy. (Being a ladyboy has to qualify some form of homosexuality!) but I have to admit that the very young and flashy and cute gay kids are very enviable. I find myself admiring them. They manage to remain innocent and yet remain what should I say "faithful" to the template that society gives the homosexual man. They almost never listen to what other people have to say about them and seem to not have a care in the world to the whispers behind their backs!

I saw a young Thai kid who after making his purchase from a 7-11 store posed in front of the door and waited for it to open then made a gesture as if he was Wonderwoman and about to fly to the ends of the Earth, arms raised in the air and face assuming the super-heroine look Haha! It was so funny I laughed so much and I was right across the street when I saw him do it so anyone who was walking my side of the road might have thought I had gone insane from the traffic and pollution of Bangkok Haha!

I love them young gay boys. The flamboyant ones are the best! They are a breed who are fast disappearing in this world. The honesty and truthfulness they display are second to none and their gestures are priceless. There is so much bullshit in the homosexual world I have to admit which is why I find myself writing this blog to give tribute to the genuineness of the young gay kid...

Hail to young gaydom! Hahahahaha!

P.S. (thank you to bryanboy.com for his picture which I used because I could not find pictures of young gay boys around the net so fast hehe)