the road to my natal day...

If not for my homesickness the days approaching my day of birth would have been a petal-covered path....fitting lead to a day which signifies the turning of a new leaf, a new chapter perhaps or new men? Haha! I shall not conclude but for sure there will be many novel adjustments to be tackled when I begin another chapter towards another year.

But what are sweet, wonderfully satisfying moments if the roads leading to them are ease-filled and unwavering? There should be trials before any triumph, pain before anything resembling gain. But for me it seems that the buildup to the day signifies too much positivitity! And it scares me. My recent surgery is a success, the trip has been very great so far, many people have been so generous with time, space and whatever else that necessitates such generosity.

For me I think that whatever lesson or experience or present I have absorbed and received on this trip, whether painful or pleasant, I have deserved all of them. I have worked hard to learn, to think and to reassess my goals in life and career. This sojourn has been eye-opening for me in innumerable ways. I have been alone all the time during this journey eventhough it may seem I am not but in the end it was my battle and only me who plowed through the fields. I can really now say that I am strong and whatever negative emotions I felt during this journey can only increase the layers of shell of protection I have.

I look forward to the next adventure!!!!