double trouble

i hate double standards...

there is enough confusion in this world and here comes double standards to further diffuse our congested world.

Men will say, you are so beautiful, you don't need anymore enhancements. And then oggle at the plastic beauties parading their wares around the Net or wherever visibility range is very high...

Men will say, I love you, I believe I can offer you this and that. Yet they will equate sex with love and make love to us and then give us a goodbye kiss without offering anything and think we have to be thankful to them for it...

Men say "women are from venus, " they say they stagger to understand us, and yet they themselves do not know what they want...they womanize, flirt and then tell us they love us deeply...

Men claim they like women who are independent but they find it hard to understand equality among the sexes...

In an already fucked-up world...all these thoughts confine me further more into a state of mental chaos and emotional maelstrom. It makes me wonder, is there anything worse than this? And I know the answer is yes........

free sex

"When a guy tells you how much he loves you, and wants to have babies with you, he means I love having sex with you for free. Free meaning no obligations. Men will promise the world to get laid. When a guy and a girl are about to have sex, a guy will promise her anything under the sun. As soon as he cums, he's like, "Get the fuck out! I don't know who you are. I've never seen you before in my life."

- excerpt from "The Invisible Trade" by Gerry Lim

diversions...

sometimes when things choke us up or occupy the mind too much we need a break...something to help steer our attention away from these objects clogging up our brains...

for me I needed a real diversion from my travels..I had been traveling around Asia for many months and I decided to just give myself the much-needed space I required.

I went home and gave myself the time to just refocus my energies on friends, family and hobbies which I am not capable of doing when I am on my travels...

God I never realized what recharging one's batteries really meant until I arrived home and started mixing with friends again! I had never felt happier and more energized than this in many weeks! Nothing beats home definitely and nothing beats the company of friends when you want to try something different from the routine you are used to....Home and friends offer many options it offers to purify one's mind and rid itself of the sebum that has clogged the pores of my brain....